This was posted on the Coil list, I'm just wondering if anyone here knows what the actual last words were, what version is true???
"On the subject of COIL spotting, I was reading various account of
Aleister Crowley's death, and I came across this one:
'According to John Symonds, a Mr Rowe witnessed Crowley's death along
with a nurse, and reported his last words as, "Sometimes I hate
myself." Biographer Gerald Suster accepted the version of events he
received from a "Mr W.H." in which Crowley dies pacing in his
living-room. Supposedly Mr W.H. heard a crash while polishing furniture
on the floor below, and entered Crowley's rooms to find him dead on the
Obviously, "Sometimes I hate myself" is not an uncommon thing to utter,
but the way this story was told made me think that it might have
inspired Balance's mantra in the track off the People Like Us remix
album and the Black Antlers CD. Has anyone else made this connection?
One would think that by the time Crowley lived his whole life, he knew the unity between 'hate' & 'love' and even 'self' and 'not-self.' Aside from that, becoming a Master of the Temple necessitates an elimination of any kind of sense of self in the sense of identification.
It seems unlikely.
So, because he obtained "Master of the Temple" in his ritual work, you think he was egoless elsewhere? I think the evidence to the contrary is overwhelmingly deafening.
No, I think that he would see the immense falsities in saying something like that.
And another thing! ..... Initiations are supposed to be real world not just ritual. You don't go through all those Ordeals to become a Master of the Temple if all you really had to do was wear a different coloured robe! Or am I being idealistic?