I Am Rey, a new member on this forum. Although I have been interested/aware of this other side for most of my life, I have been really embracing it for about 2 and a half years after a significant life changing incident. I am really looking forward to the opportunity to interact with peers as well as share the information that has been coming through me.
R: ... a significant life changing incident
Aha! And so we must suspect that you underwent a crisis, an initiatory event.
We can talk about ceremonies
and we can even attend and go.
But the real deal's in harmonies
with daily life down here below.
Most folks are directed onto "The Path" by some crisis/incident that allows them a glimpse of "the other side," the "source," the "errors of their ways."
cs: Welcome to the loony bin!
What a delightful way of describing our newly-renovated, rubber-walled magickal circle, wherein all bots and trolls are electrocuted upon crossing said perimeter.
Thanks for the welcome. Its a longer story than I originally thought due to realizing how many things in my past were leading me this way so I will try to condense it to a smaller time frame (about 7 months). I'm not omitting anything out of deceit just trying to stay concise so I wont be going into my background at this time. When it happened I was a 20 hour a day working beast that never said no to a project or to helping others until I literally collapsed multiple times. My crisis involved being extremely sick. My white blood cell count was at 25000, I was sweating nightly through 7 towels, and in 2 and a half months I went from about 195lbs to under 120lbs. This was an Apoptosis cell death where every part of me was shutting down and wasting away. Based on previous learning I was not about to go through the recommended oncology treatments and opted on natural plant based methods.
About 6 weeks in, I started waking around 3-4am with visions. It looked like a cityscape as if it were made of the falling green symbols in the matrix. I tried and tried to remember and interpret but my mind was shutting down so my mental faculties were not how they should be. I tried notepads and recorders next to my bed as well as waking my wife to help remember. Over the course of a week I kept being woken up to see the same thing but I was determined to see more of what it was. Somehow I was eventually able to "zoom in" on the vision and I could see that the symbols were actually falling chili pepper seeds. As soon as they became clear I realized "capsicum". From that point, ridiculous amounts of every type of spice was incorporated with the large amounts of raw superfoods I was already consuming. That was a big turning point in the sickness and when I realized that I should be paying much more attention to my "imagination."
By this point I was over the hump and continued going through the battle for about 6 more weeks. Docs said my system was clear but I was still wasted away in my mind and body. I commited myself to rebuilding and turning away from my old way of being. As I did so, I had the opportunity to experience individual muscle groups rebuild as I learned what parts had to be in place before others could build. Simultaneously I experienced the circuits of consciousness turning back on. My mind has always been very fast and very high capacity, so losing my mental faculty was something I would have never imagined. As hard as it was I feel blessed in this experience because it gave me a much better understanding of why others think/are different. Unfortunately I didnt know anything about the circuits of consciousness yet so it was a very confusing time.
About a month after I started this recovery, circumstances in my life introduced me to my first "magikal mentor". He is a polymath with multiple doctorates and long experience in government dark tech projects. We hit it off immediately and I realized I met someone different like me. He gave me a stack of books and we started frequent emails and phone calls. Often I would ask a question and it would be answered with another book to read. During this time I started feeling a buzzing/vibrating occasionally in the back of my head/ top of my neck. About 3 months later we had a face to face where he gave me another stack of books (liber al, keys of solomon, etc). Two days later while sitting on the couch, the vibrating started again stronger than ever. It took over my whole body and I was essentially having a seizure. My wife was scared and through gritted teeth I said, "Don't worry, I can fix it." I forced myself into a lotus position and the instant I did, my head threw back and the shaking stopped. My day to day consciousness went in the "back seat". Then the talking began. My HGA started dictating how my life was to be, how to live, who to be around, etc. This lasted about 45 minutes and when it was done my new path began.
That was about 2 and a half years ago and has been followed up with more sessions like that as more and more levels of consciousness turned back on. Since then I've learned about channeling, crystals, divination, automatic writing, dream interpretation, past lives and much of what is described in the various Thelemic ranks.
The information coming through varies, and it seems to be due to planetary hours. I have about a dozen binders of sketches, charts and journaling from about when the first channeling session hit. Its almost daily, and often multiple times a day now, although my body has strengthened so its a seizure free stream of hypnagogic imagery. I have been learning how to live with this and have not had a whole lot of people I can speak openly with this. Unfortunately I had to go through the experience (against the recommendations of mentors) of trying to share this with the world and learning the hard way that its not an easy (or recommended) thing to do. I've been working hermetically for about a year based on those experiences.
Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you coming here.
Are you Brazilian? Something in my tingly parts says maybe.
'government dark tech projects'
The internet is fun again!
I am not making fun of you sir, but I am hazing you. With full recalcitrance. See above image.
What kind of projects?
And this is not funny at all.
You don't have cancer do you?
No Brazilian, not even a wax 😉
Projects involving using tech to identify, stimulate or surpress abilities.
No cancer anymore.
Welcome to haze, private pyle!
cs: What kind of projects?
I have mentioned Rey's "first mentor" here before. He helped to formulate the Navy SEALS and conducted training to enable them to make instant decisions (no mental hesitation). He helped Phyllis Seckler start The College of Thelema. He was the first "gifted person" that Leary introduced to LSD, wanting to see how it affected a full-blown polymath physicist. He was the tech who wired up Jack Schwarz, et al, at the Menninger Foundation Study to identify "talents," people who display "ESP." He was a State Dept contractor or employee, but he moved in military training circles. He is still very active. His current work is in Agriculture and Explaing Magick in terms of Physics. If you want to look at his website, buzz me on the PM service. Oh, that's suspended ... you'll have to email me at the secret address on the dark web.
1.lay down authoritatively; prescribe."the tsar's attempts to dictate policy"
synonyms: give orders to, order about/around, boss (about/around), impose one's will on, lord it over, bully, domineer, dominate, tyrannize, oppress, ride roughshod over, control, pressurize, browbeat; More
2.say or read aloud (words to be typed, written down, or recorded on tape)."I have four letters to dictate"
synonyms: say aloud, utter, speak, read out, read aloud, recite"he sent for his secretary and dictated a letter"
Similar to out of body but more like the backseat and someone else is driving. My day to day consciousness was not doing the talking. I dont have normal recollection when it occurs, like a dream. I feel the concepts laid down but rely more on a witness to record the info.
Thank you for the extra info .. it's appreciated to know of another beings path and way to pop In the only bank I am in credit with.. the memory bank for 'Ron' and Justin case (Ron doesn't come around)
My own experience/s is vastly different and my thoughts / semi concluding/ drought copy of results is that me and shera In the mirror are ultimately one Dino (DNA being) when she talks it's me but it's more than me ... When Ishe learned that a mojo like destructive black lodge wasblue .. hmm typo imma just leave that one alive anyhows where was I ? Ah yeah jumping Jupiter's . So this ring-in was assisting suicides in kaliseram yeah that's my word for lama children used to be pagan tribes....... This is interesting ..describing the indescribable ..edit line
Wtf??? Is there some sort of incoherent code language I'm unaware of here?
Thank you for the heads-up. We were just assuming there were a little bit of hangups transitioning from netzach to tipareth...
What is it with the sheilas from Down Under? I don't believe it has all been just one person.
Brother Rey, if you want some 'interesting' backstory you can search the posts (top right) for 'Mayet', and also 'Pegasus' the former of which I believe does not show up in 'users anymore', for various reasons.
Happy to read. Can you narrow the search please? 7 pages of results. After reading the first few, I'm not really sure what you have sent me looking for.
It's not hugely worth the time...but you can narrow it down by just reading user 'Pegasus' posts. Also in regards to mayet all her posts would now be labelled 'anonymous'
Just a lot of craziness.
Sample of mayet:
I also realised a few days back that a lot of my keys where known and hidden before.. hence the antagonism.. its not just about cute monsters in code and pictures and colours its about putting everything in PROPER order, the new world order and there is a new atom or is it an old one.. and then theres pi so I wont be the lost word anymore.. my way is thelemis the way of woman.. the priestess empress line..kingly queen line my name can be many and it is nun ..I am Mayet I am Magi I get called the bird lady I am truth I can be a pea or an elephant .. at the end of the day I am JUST May cos I MAY and I Might.. Im might not know what the 93 and 31 are all about..I do know my job and I will bring the balance back and bring the aqua aura in. the woman's healing current between your red and black tree and my greeny blue white Scot cross heart and sword it all will be done..the rainbow... aqua vitae.. the law is for all.. we may use different paths to get there but in the end destination is the same.. so stop stifling me please.. Im not going to break and Im not going to break anything.. I will create a whole lot though..
Im still young ..Im growing day by day .. but how long is a piece of string? I feel as if Im a teenager .. my mirror tell me the truth though.. it always has.. the old crone..
so the choice is yours.. truth and playing nice in the sandpit? ..or thunderbolts and lightening.. keep pretending and acting like im crazy or accept whats bigger than all of us.. I dont have enemies nor a hate list.. I like everyone een those who have wronged me.....'
I find some entertainment value in babble but not everyone does. 'Have a nice day' 🙂
It reads like there is an information flow, but she's overloaded so cant focus it down to coherent thought.
I spent a good 8 months trying to weed through people like that before I realized how blessed i was by the teachers i was already working with. At this point I'm seeking knowledge and understanding of this new world I was thrust into. The readings are often confusing enough without loading in a confused persons interpretation...
It truly is rare to find someone open to this world that has an analytical or scientific understanding and not just being "spiritual".
That is an amazingly on point, point.
Many that come here don't heed the basic tenants of knowing thyself. Or being checked out by doctors, militaries or wives (they know all).
When I first came here I was in my mid twenties and some of my posts were stupid. (You can read them) but thank god I am a better more adept person today.
It's hard work.
A lot - most ppl just want The Secret quick fixes spirit channeling online alien babbling.
Excuses for formatting on fone.
But you have come to the right place .
I know a little ,ignant does and even mal? Knows a little . Tigger too 🙂
Shiva knows a lot and so do rarely appearing avatars like Michael Staley and kidneyhawk.
You're in the right place.
Back to drumming. 🙂
Earlier in this thread, the term "polymath" was used. BBC just (today) ran an interesting article on that subject:
"What’s a polymath?
"Even the definition of “polymath” is the subject of debate. The term has its roots in Ancient Greek and was first used in the early 17th Century to mean a person with “many learnings”, but there is no easy way to decide how advanced those learnings must be and in how many disciplines. Most researchers argue that to be a true polymath you need some kind of formal acclaim in at least two apparently unrelated domains."
Note: A really good (8-hour) IQ test will not only result in an IQ, but will also list the various "areas" and the relative IQ to others in that area. Math is one area. Others are spacial relationship perception, manual dexterity, reasoning, general vocabulary, etc. Most folks at the "Genius" level have one or two spikes, way up there, in one (or more) areas, thus their overall IQ is boosted ... but they may be normal or even retarded in other areas. Surely, any one of you had a teacher, or know of someone, who was/is a wiz in some subject, but a total dunce in other areas?
Then there's the person who scores high in all areas, but excels (spokes) in none. This person can essentially do anything: Policeman, Robberman, Indian Chief. It's up to them which one they like the most.