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Magickal phenomenon, is this normal?


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Last night I began my studies in the Thoth tarot, as part of my studies in the qabalah, so I decided to do some magickal work (invented by me, nothing to elaborate) in order to "understand" or "assimilate" each arcanum or sephirah. I began yesterday with the Fool ("The Book of Thoth" is a beautiful masterpiece!), I designed a "ritual" or whatever you want to call it. I made my temple, decorated it with tarot cards, the fool, and others that are close to it in the Tree. I had four candels, outside of the circle (for light), but in the circle I had in each of the four directions a glass turned upside down (a way of evoking the element of air). But here's what's important:

At first I did a small exercise of "full awareness of the body", from the Golden Dawn I think (I downloaded it from the internet as the "self-healing archaeus" or something like that), here's the interesting part: With my eyes closed I experienced as if my head was turning left, of course physically I wasn't turning my head or moving any muscle, but it was extraordinarily real and strong. I'm not saying I felt as if an invisible force was about to break my neck, no, but as I was turning my head to the left, it was so real (it was real!) and the feeling so accute and potent that I had to open my eyes a bit to convince myself that I wasn't moving my head to the left.

It wasn't scary or anything (I'm a big skeptical when it comes to the "supernatural" as it is conceived vulgarly or in movies or traditional folk), but I'd like to know what it is. Is this normal, has anyone experienced anything like that?

The second thing I want to ask to know if it is just me, or if it is normal, or if it good, is this: In my ritual I "left myself go", by that I mean, I started acting spontanously. Perhaps it's best if I explain exactly what happened: After the mantra, the emptying of the mind, and concentrating on the Fool, and on the Stele of Revealing, I "decided", I didn't plan it, it kind of "came to me". I lifted each glass, first above my head, repeated "Nuit" three times, then I blowed air as hard as I could to feel it come back to my face, concentrating on Nuit and the element of air in the fool. Then I held the glass at the height of my chest, and repeated the process, then I held the glass below my face (I was in lotus position, so it was in my lap or close to it) and repeated the process.

I did the same thing with all four glasses, the holding, repeating "Nuit", the air on my face, by the second or third glass I just let my self go with it, I blew the air, received the wind in my faced and breathed real hard, the intensity of my focus was amazing, specially since it was effort-less.

This "letting go" was then more definite when I lifted each glass upside down, then blew at the candels with it. It just came to me, I didn't plan it, it was a "thing of the moment". Reading about the Fool and Crowley's description of the myth of Parsival, I now understand there is some symbolism between parsival's crossing the holy grail with the lance or speer. In this case the candle would be the speer, Hadit, and the glass or cup would be Nuit. I then breathed the smoke coming from the glass and exhaled while meditating on Ra-Hoor-Khuit.

I finish my operations or practices by praying to Hadit, Nuit and Ra-Hoor-Khuit in the following manner (here to was an interesting phenomenon): In lotus position I lift my arms above my head, say "Nuit" while looking upwards, the again looking forward, and again looking down. Then "Hadit" with my hands in my chest, the same three times, up, middle and down. Finally I throw myself to the ground (like a muslim prayer) and say "Ra-Hoor-Khuit" once. Here's what matters to me:
Again I let my self go and, by the second or third "prayer" I changed my voice and pronunciation to a considerable degree. It's like when you respond mechanically (by that I mean, with no conscious effort), but at the same time I got the distinct feeling that it wasn't me, or it wasn't my conscious self who was talking or praying.

Is this good? And if so, how can I make it stronger, so that I can "let go" for the entire excercise?

Also, are both phenomenons connected?

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"Letting go", IMO, is exactly the right thing to do in ritual. Consider written-down rituals as merely a framework, a model for the steps of the process. Then feel free to innovate as you will. That makes ritual a creative thing, putting yourself into it and getting what you need out of it, instead of it just being a series of actions based on what somebody else said you need to do to reach the state of mind you're seeking.

Magick is creative, and you will create your own Magicks and write your own rituals, pass those down, and those will be modified by Magicians in the future.

You're part of the creative Current, you are creating the Magick of the future. By all means, do what comes from your heart, this is your True Will.

All the best!

Papa Nick


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Asclepio-

Just a note here: I've experienced similar things during practice, esp. during forms of Asana with eyes shut-vertigo, floating sensations, pivoting and repositioning of my sense of body etc. I wouldn't feel nervous or worried about it at all-it seems to be a loosening up of one's subtle body which can turn into control and direction over that body. I think of a baby begining to use those unstrengthened limbs and rather helplessly making movements, being unable to roll over etc. Based on experience with my own toddler, the ability to stand, walk, run, climb out of the crib and perform super human feats will come QUITE quickly! If we attain to Astral Toddler-hood, I think the swiftest of the swift in the Tunnels of Set will have a hard time wrapping a tentacle around our ankles!

I'm sure you're all over this but journaling is so important. Logging in patterns of experience, observations regarding development etc. I've found that in this practice, very small and subtle things, which might be lost to memory if not written down, will sometimes show themselves to be of much greater importance to self-understanding and further work down the line.

I'm also with Papanick on the "letting go" angle!

That makes ritual a creative thing

It also makes it a LIVING thing!

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Kyle


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"papanick" wrote:
"Letting go", IMO, is exactly the right thing to do in ritual. Consider written-down rituals as merely a framework, a model for the steps of the process. Then feel free to innovate as you will. That makes ritual a creative thing, putting yourself into it and getting what you need out of it, instead of it just being a series of actions based on what somebody else said you need to do to reach the state of mind you're seeking.

Magick is creative, and you will create your own Magicks and write your own rituals, pass those down, and those will be modified by Magicians in the future.

You're part of the creative Current, you are creating the Magick of the future. By all means, do what comes from your heart, this is your True Will.

All the best!

Papa Nick

Thanks for the message, I'll let go more and more, I imagine this "letting go" will be fortified and strengthed in future practices. I'm thinking now that this "letting go" of the ritual, since the ritual is a symbol of existence, of our own lives will, one day (after entering the city of pyramids I guess) be transported or continued to cover, not only brief seconds or minutes on one ritual, but entire minutes, hours, or perhaps days?
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Kyle,

Just a note here: I've experienced similar things during practice, esp. during forms of Asana with eyes shut-vertigo, floating sensations, pivoting and repositioning of my sense of body etc. I wouldn't feel nervous or worried about it at all-it seems to be a loosening up of one's subtle body which can turn into control and direction over that body. I think of a baby begining to use those unstrengthened limbs and rather helplessly making movements, being unable to roll over etc.

😀 That's a deep way of putting it, like a baby, yet another parallelism with Harpocrates and the Fool Arcana! Very interesting.

Based on experience with my own toddler, the ability to stand, walk, run, climb out of the crib and perform super human feats will come QUITE quickly! If we attain to Astral Toddler-hood, I think the swiftest of the swift in the Tunnels of Set will have a hard time wrapping a tentacle around our ankles!

Good to know, I'll keep working then!

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