During these years and throughout most of my 20s I made a living driving a dump truck hauling heavy materials dirt and trash. This provided me enough income and freedom to give time to DOME center and take breaks for LSD trips, weekend retreats, etc.

"Call me Mr. Trash" is what my ad said in the local papers. I got lots of work as a truck driver and the work was very physical, dirty, and invigorating. I liked it. But eventually grew tired of it. Hauling garbage, dirt, concrete, constructions debri etc.

[Here is a picture at DOME center in 2001. I was the permanent dish washer at DOME in exchange for delicious and free macrobiotic meals. I was there for several nice dinners with the Weiser's in the late 80s when Ed's book was about to be published.]

[My poem "Make Love and Make War" written in 1991 or so and published in DOME's quarterly zine/journal. At the time I wrote this I had no idea about Crowley's work, True Will, Thelema, or the Book of the Law. I knew nothing about it. Period. I wouldn't know really anything about Crowley's work until 2010.]

NOTE ABOVE: "The love is heart the war is will"

..to be continued.

[Edwin C. Steinbrecher from an early version of his book, late 70s. It was around this time Francis Ford Coppola paid him to write a tarot scene for Apocalypse Now. Can you see the influence Edwin may have had on the Brando character? Edwin told me Eleanor "Ellie" Coppola called him from the Phillipines upset that Brando arrived for work horribly overweight and couldn't fit into any military garb and didn't look at all like a soldier. Edwin suggested shooting Brando in shadows and dressing him differently.]

[Edwin's last letter to friends before his death in 2002. (This can viewed at archive.org Wayback Machine by searching "dome-igm.com" the old website of DOME meditation center.]

NOTE ABOVE: "The classes and worshops at DOME will continue to be presented by....Michael Tierney, astrologer, I-ching counselor, and Inner Guide Meditation Initiator..."

..to be continued (I have some work to do on a website i'm doing for a friend..I will check back later.)

em: All my experiences with religion have been accompanied by vows of celibacy or a strict governing of sex and it’s expression.

This [^] is one of those Universal Principles: "Cultures may vary in their approach to sexual regulation (in Ancient AEgypt one had to marry his sister; today, it's strictly forbidden almost everywhere), but ALL of them do claim the right to establish and enforce such laws."
-paraphrased from The Crystal Chip Directory

Everywhere and anywhere we go, the sexual rules may vary. But there's always some rule of law in place. Except for Sodom, Go-more-ah, Tijuana, and The Abbey of Thelema, which you can understand were/are purposely unregulated.

This is all clearly the 4th neurocircuit, called Socio-Sexual, and generally referred to as cultural bias. Look for it in yourself at your nearest Netzach.

preaching door to door (hated it)

"Argue not, convert not, talk not overmuch."
- paraphrased from Liber AL

Your experience was impressed, programmed behavior based on illusion. No wonder it didn't appeal to you. This "knocking on doors in order to convert" practice only appeals to those who think they're earning their way into the 144,000 that will be saved. Both in the Bible and in general new-age icons, they are sheep, trying to gather other stray sheep into the fold.

Although AL tells Therion/us? not to convert, but merely to give a copy of AL to anyone we meet (even AC didn't do this) and let them decide to join up or bugger off, we find instruction in AC's writings about how to extend Thelema into dominance in the world. In OTO, one was/is? supposed to bring two new members into the fold before advancing to the II*. In A.'.A.'., one is supposed to have linked up with a "successor" before advancing to the next degree (relaxed in the early stages, strictly enforced at higher levels).

Another Universal Principle is at work here: Beginning aspirants are almost always infused with the first scraps of devotion/results/satori/exhilaration that they feel compelled to rally others to their newly-discovered flagpole.

Again, what the hell did I get myself into?!

U.G. Krishnamurti has the answer: "You should thoroughly beat your parents for getting you into this mess."

I believe this may be how it works. One life you pioneer something, then next life you support others in their efforts to take it to the next level.

Here I would consider caution. The words "believe" and "may" are too tentative. The Universal Principle involved will adjust one's ongoing experiences through time according to what is needed next. Several generations or lives may lie fallow, while others simply pick up where the thread last ended. Your concept is correct in that perspectives and positions may vary, but not necessarily in a string yin-yang pattern.

But I didn’t like the infighting and politics of living at the center and I didn’t like being shit on by petty tyrants who thought themselves of a more lofty status than I.

This is another Universal Principle (you are identifying them nicely and correctly; there is evidence that you were undergoing the Labors of Hercules - cleaning out the stables being one of them): "ALL Outer Orders are filled with infighting, back-stabbing, competitive engagements, and assorted squabbling."

This is because there really is no spiritual harmony in the Outer Order (of any lineage or constitution) because everybody is still working on the alignment of their kama-manas ("desire-mind"). It's all ego dominance and cultural bias, with various subconscious complexes thrown in.

As AC wrote: "It's a circus, a blaring of trumpets and the roar of elephants. But you must go through this."
- liberally paraphrased from a dim memory

I got lots of work as a truck driver and the work was very physical, dirty, and invigorating

This is doing the Work at the bottom level. We all did this sort of thing in Solar Lodge. You would have fit in quite nicely.

Analysis and Commentary to be continued ... when the thread continues ... after you build your friend's website ... maybe ... or not.

The battles and apocalyptic stuff are for the most part an inner process I believe. One that each individual has to contend with.

U.G. Krishnamurti has the answer: “You should thoroughly beat your parents for getting you into this mess.”

Or, as UK poet Philip Larkin explained,

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/48419/this-be-the-verse

Also explained in West Side Story,

https://youtu.be/j7TT4jnnWys

I missed commenting on this one: em: The battles and apocalyptic stuff are for the most part an inner process I believe. One that each individual has to contend with.

I would agree to agree with this concept. It coincides with certain viewpoints associated with Ch III of AL, which is pretty fierce in many places.

This is also a safe presumption. If one were to go out and start slaying the low men, one would get headlines about one's capture or death suggesting "terrorist."

But this presumption is overshadowed by the Universal Principle of As Within, so Without. That's a modification of As Above, so Below. Same principle.

Yet this realization is only perceived at Tiphareth. Below that, it may occur as a fleeting insight, or as a belief, but it's not really operative. Way up above (think Binah, the buddhic plane), there's no harmonization of inner and outer, no reflection of up/down, in/out. Up there, one IS those opposites, combined, and one (no one? Nemo doesn't differentiate between black or white hands?) cannot avoid taking responsibility for whatever is taking place. ALL phenomena = God adds or deducts it to/from your cosmic bank account.

How'd we ever get into this mess?

@shiva said:

This is also a safe presumption.

That is my intention. To be safe. I've had some hellish episodes with this project especially early on. I am always looking for the happy ending (in more ways than one) which may or may not be forthcoming. I'm always hoping the worst is over and we can all be friends. This is a bit of weakness on my part. I want it all to be ok for everyone. This may be wishful thinking.

But this presumption is overshadowed by the Universal Principle of As Within, so Without. That’s a modification of As Above, so Below. Same principle.

Yes.

Way up above (think Binah, the buddhic plane), there’s no harmonization of inner and outer, no reflection of up/down, in/out. Up there, one IS those opposites, combined, and one (no one? Nemo doesn’t differentiate between black or white hands?) cannot avoid taking responsibility for whatever is taking place.

I began the Aleister In Wonderland blog in July of 2010 (sun in cancer) and soon after retired from the adult biz and left for Asia.

Newly retired with my pockets full of cash I continued studying and blogging. It was uncanny watching the riddle unfold before my eyes over the next few months into early 2011.

At the same the Arab Spring was taking off on this same side of the world and quickly building steam from mid-2010 into 2011.

I was in a very high state of awareness/consciousness during this time and felt a great connection with my HGA.

In early January 2011 right as Kenneth Grant died I had some very good talks with my HGA. These "talks" helped me unravel the riddle more and gave me insights into my life. They weren't really "talks" but telepathic communications. In this heightened state I needed only a word or two from my HGA to trigger an avalanche of insights.

These meetings with my HGA continued on and off and daily for about about two weeks (January 8-22, 2011 approx.) and culminated with me invoking Baphomet. This invocation immediately caused a huge rift with my landlord when my Baphomet statue came alive in his presence a few hours later.

By alive I mean my cast iron statue snarled and snorted and blew steam out of its nostrils, it's wings flapped, and it sent out about ten visible currents of electricity in violent archs, physically paralyzing my landlord for about 5 seconds. He cowered and groaned flailing his arms until Baphomet let go.

It happened.

My landlord was terrified but said nothing. As soon as the electrical currents streaming from Bapohomet subsided and let go of him, he slowly walked backwards out of my apartment never taking his eye off of me, his mouth agape in shock. He did not say a word.

This is when things started getting really weird.

The heat was on. I had to leave town quickly and ended up in Burma entering the country on January 25, 2011 right as the Egyptian revolution in Cairo was peaking.

[my passport stamp as I entered Burma Jan 25,2011]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_epy5IHsp3o

"The Egyptian Revolution of 2011 (Revolution of 25 of January), also known as the Lotus Revolution, was a diverse movement of demonstrations, marches, occupations, non-violent civil resistance, acts of civil disobedience and labor strikes which took place following a popular uprising that began on 25 January 2011. Millions of protesters from a variety of socio-economic and religious backgrounds demanded the overthrow of the regime of Egyptian President Hosni Mubarak. There were also important Islamic, liberal, anti-capitalist, nationalist, and feminist currents of the revolution. Violent clashes between security forces and protesters resulted in at least 846 people killed and 100,000 injured."

Needless to say I retired Baphomet soon afterward and I do not mess around with these practices any more.

...to be continued.

@shiva said:

This [^] is one of those Universal Principles: “Cultures may vary in their approach to sexual regulation (in Ancient AEgypt one had to marry his sister; today, it’s strictly forbidden almost everywhere), but ALL of them do claim the right to establish and enforce such laws.”
-paraphrased from The Crystal Chip Directory

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YKWNifVQuhU

@elitemachinery said:

I believe this may be how it works. One life you pioneer something, then next life you support others in their efforts to take it to the next level.

@shiva said:

Here I would consider caution. The words “believe” and “may” are too tentative. The Universal Principle involved will adjust one’s ongoing experiences through time according to what is needed next. Several generations or lives may lie fallow, while others simply pick up where the thread last ended. Your concept is correct in that perspectives and positions may vary, but not necessarily in a string yin-yang pattern.

I didn't state this very well. Your point taken.

I'm trying to say that when new concepts or things are being pioneered in any field the baton is sometimes passed to another more capable team member while the other team member takes a needed break.

Edwin only mentioned Crowley once or twice. And there was a clear and obvious attempt to distance himself from Crowley's notorious reputation. But I couldn't help feeling that Edwin was very influenced by Crowley and that Crowley and he were cut from the same cloth. Edwin had taken many of Crowley's teachings and made them his own, discarding the rest.

Edwin, like Crowley, was very driven in his life's mission to introduce the world to the HGA's. He was very precise in his methods and writings and was attempting to make contacting the HGA accessible to anyone through his book and teachings.

On the other hand, although I was invited into DOME and quickly rose the ranks, I could take it or leave it. Glad to be supportive, but not really interested in taking Edwin's concepts to the next level.

[Aleister Crowley (left), Edwin Steinbrecher (right) both about mid-60s in age]

@jamiejbarter said:

But you surely weren’t expecting anyone to gasp with immediate realisation and genuflect at the knee, though? Seriously what was/ is your best (most optimistic) expectation of a positive reaction from those not your (close) friends?

Naturally, I knew the path ahead would be long and arduous. I knew I would be laughed at, mocked etc. I didn't expect anyone to "believe me" (unless they were clinically challenged.) I wasn't afraid of what would come I was just happy to have a new project to move forward with in life. But I must admit some of the comments and putdowns from close friends did sting a bit.

[experpt below is from the Aleister In Wonderland blog about section posted on January 10, 2011 - see archive.org aleisterinwonderland/about]

-begin quote-

-end quote-

@jamiejbarter continues:

Not saying you might’ve self destructed, but did you have any choice in the matter there Jim (I mean, Mike!)?

Yes I did self-destruct somewhat. It was all part of my downward spiral and exit from the adult biz. It was all perfect really. No I had no choice. But the path forward at least for the short term was clear and full of possibilities. It was time to get out of adult and start the new project. It took me nine months to save the money I needed and do just that. Upon my exit I received an unexpected royalty check for $22,000. This confirmed for me that I was on the right path. A nice kick in the arse for my next venture forward.

Looking at things from a different tack, what do you think is the meaning of this in this incarnation of yours, as far as you know? For instance, do you have any sort of a “message” (e.g. an update of Liber II) for people, or is it all just an entertaining diversion for you and way of passing away the time?

Hmm, how about "Do What Thou Wilt?"

I'm not entertaining myself. I find myself challenged by the riddle and the prospect of accomplishing something truly impossible. This is work. But I do think the best path forward may be entertainment in the form of a book and/or movie or art project. All of the above. Ultimately, I'd like this story to be known and shared, and that it add a chapter to the myth of Aleister Crowley. If in the process people are introduced to Edwin's work or Aleister's work or Liber Legis and the Holy Guardian Angels then all the better.

Incidentally, it should be noted that verses 56 to 58 of Cap 2 of Liber AL as quoted refer to the viewpoint of Hadit the infinitesimally small, and not to any personality of A.C. or The Beast or whatever.

Yes thank you. I'm still learning about the Book. Still studying. I read it often. But I do reserve the right to quote from Liber AL liberally in dealing with trolls.

@elitemachinery said:

Needless to say I retired Baphomet soon afterward and I do not mess around with these practices any more.

[Las Vegas 2013 - Baphomet and the magick wand and magick devil ring I inherited from DOME. One last photo op before retiring them to a drawer.]

@shiva said:

This is also a safe presumption. If one were to go out and start slaying the low men, one would get headlines about one’s capture or death suggesting “terrorist.”

The period of 2010-2011 was an adventure, watching the riddle unfold as life events and revolutions took place in Cairo and elsewhere. I couldn't help but feel connected to it all. The synchronicities i've experienced since starting this project are continuing and often uncanny. So when I started this thread and woke up the next morning to see that Notre Dame cathedral was on fire, I was really not that surprised. It's par for the course really.

That being said, I do think there is a correct and smart way to proceed. I also think that this path is full of traps and pitfalls if one were to take the Book of the Law too literally or try to be some sort of messiah, invoking demons and causing revolutions.

[screencap of Aleister In Wonderland blog attempting to tie together the events of the Arab Spring. -see archive.org and search aleisterinwonderland.com/777 click Jan 2016 scan for latest version]

Although I am fond of this time in my life 2010-2011 and the feelings and memories these events stirred in me, I do think there is a better path forward. In addition, I didn't and still don't know what I am doing in regards to Magick. My ability to invoke is unquestionable, but I have no training or ability currently in the safeguards responsible magicians put in place before and after such actions. It took me years to recover from that chaos that insued in my life, and I am in no hurry to return to the abyss.

Play with fire. Get burned! Go figure.

[six weeks after my invocation the Fukushima wave hits Japan and the "Apocalypse" goes live on world news - NOTE the humor: "How ignorant are you? Take the test! and "NEWSWEEK" aka "TheDailyBeast.com"]

@elitemachinery :

Naturally, I knew the path ahead would be long and arduous. I knew I would be laughed at, mocked etc.
Still, that might be better than being pitied - right?

I didn’t expect anyone to “believe me” (unless they were clinically challenged.)
How do you think the situation is any different at this stage in the proceedings? Would you also be saying that people might need to be in any way "clinically challenged" if they were to go as far as to advance you the benefit of the doubt?

“I expect that at times I may be misunderstood, reviled, mocked, disregarded, or laughed at as a fool. But please try to see past the obvious attempt at self-aggrandizement this assertion could appear to be.”
OK. I'm trying, but could you give more of a clue as to what this "assertion could appear to be"? It means precisely what, in everyday terms?

Hmmm, how about "Do What Thou Wilt?"
Hardly original to you, though! Or any sort of an update... Maybe you haven't fully thought this through yet (although you seem to have had 8+ years to prepare) and could do wit a bit more time? That's not unreasonable, but how much more time would you now need? Otherwise, the reaction to your revelation is the same, even if were true, to that if Amado was really found to have been the son & heir to A.C. after all. "Oh, yes? And ...?"
Please reveal it to me ("... ever: To me! To me!" I:53)

Playfully yours
N Joy

"Never get out of the boat. Absolutely goddamn right. Unless you were goin' all the way. Kurtz got off the boat. He split from the whole fuckin' program." - Capt. Willard

Timothy Wylie - member of the Process Church and author of Love Sex Fear & Death.

Interviewer: "Do you think the world is heading for a catastrophe?"

Wylie: "No, I don't. We are heading for an absolute miracle....I don't want to spoil the joke...each one of us has a destiny and path a particular task to accomplish in this lifetime. And what the angels do is they help us do it....We're setting ourselves up for the big joke..the big contrast. Because what we have to realize is we have every single wrong. Everything is upside down....There will come a moment when this planet is going to become the pearl of the universe. It will become the most important planet. This is Michael's planet..."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWpfK81AxRs

Wylie: It will become the most important planet.

Alice Bailey touches on this topic, but ends up wondering what is so special about Earth that cosmic forces are coming to bear in order to assist in giving birth to semething special.

Well ... isn't that special? Actually, after looking around the nearby universe, I don't see a better location. I'll skip the trip to Luna and Mars.

As a different comment, I would say that MT's 17-year enlistment under the DOME will qualify for having "received a spark" as well as trudgery through the long halls and vast auditoriums of the Outer Order.

We are not able to assess (yet) whether MT fulfilled all the Tasks of a formal Outer Order of the A.'.A.'., per se (that means exactly in every detail), but he claims to have had a chant with his Angel. And that's something that cannot be PROVED by MT, AC, or me, or you (anyone) because it's a subjective thing.

However, there is usually objective phenomena associated with such an event. I'd like to tell you a story or two, but will refrain in order to keep the topic on line. What next? This is turning into an archetypal drama.

@shiva said:

Actually, after looking around the nearby universe, I don’t see a better location. I’ll skip the trip to Luna and Mars.

I agree.

As a different comment, I would say that MT’s 17-year enlistment under the DOME will qualify for having “received a spark” as well as trudgery through the long halls and vast auditoriums of the Outer Order.

In the interest of being thorough, I will continue to share documents and stories from my 17 stint of service at D.O.M.E. meditation center until i've covered it all. Then I will upload the new pics of my B.C. and continue forward.

We are not able to assess (yet) whether MT fulfilled all the Tasks of a formal Outer Order of the A.’.A.’., per se (that means exactly in every detail), but he claims to have had a chant with his Angel. And that’s something that cannot be PROVED by MT, AC, or me, or you (anyone) because it’s a subjective thing.

I have more to share about this also. Likely much more. Including quotes from Edwin's book. I will try to be as orderly as possible but I may skip around a bit as needed. Re the A.A. and other tasks I have no knowledge of these details or requirements at this time but let me know if I ring any bells.

For the record I still haven't read all the Crowley books. I've read Liber AL the most times. Other books I've read portions of, skimmed, or used for reference if they have a good index (Pedurabo for example.) Since invoking Baphomet, chaos ensued and my life was a wreck for several years, scraping by and moving every few months. There have been many ordeals. But the spell seems to have worn off and I have settled into a stable life, with four cats and a stable place to live and work. Things are good and I have dealt with most of my fear. So more studies shall ensue. Perhaps it's important for now that I am a bit ignorant of the details, perhaps i'm just lazy.

For now here is an email I sent to myself on January 22, 2011 after the talks with my HGA and a visit from Aiwass seemed to be winding up. This was a few hours before invoking Baphomet. I sent this email to myself for two reasons. One to document my state of mind, and two because I had some dreams and strong feelings that I was being watched by authorities and deep state types (due to sharing my process and the Aleister project on facebook) and I wanted to let others know my state of mind.

However, there is usually objective phenomena associated with such an event. I’d like to tell you a story or two, but will refrain in order to keep the topic on line.

I will continue to share what i've got and you can decide.

Feel free to put a word in brackets to remind us to start another thread later to unravel other stories you may have.

[BAPHOMET]

I remember you saying here on Lashtal a few years ago that playing with Baphomet was a big no no and that whenver the folks at Solar Lodge played with Baphomet it caused big problems with the authorities in the real world. I couldn't agree more. We can discuss this later if you want.

What next? This is turning into an archetypal drama.

I appreciate the questions and support. For now I will continue with mostly D.O.M.E. and Edwin stuff until it's time to unravel the B.C.

...to be continued.

em: I have no knowledge of these details or requirements at this time

Oh, it's simple enough:

1. Control of the posture (asana)
2. Control of the breath (pranayama)
3. Banishing/Invocation
4. Stopping thought
5. Astral Projection
6. Rising on the Planes
7. Mental concentration (dharana)
8. Qabalah
9. Pratyahara (a form of evocation involving personal and cultural bias, plus confrontation of the id).
10. Digging in a mine to obtain gold, silver, iron, and copper - to smelt, forge, cast, or otherwise shape these elements into a disk, cup, swo9rd, wand ... topped off with a lamp that burns without oil, being fed directly from the Aethyr itself.
11. One form of Divination (Atu, Yi King, Astro, etc). I think everyone should be familiar with all these forms, and a specialist in at least one.

You must understand that I might have skipped something here (like memorizing a bunch of mystical prose and symbols that don't work). Personally, I think memorization of AL is good, and the major Tables from 777 should be absorbed, but the mystical prose memorization part can be left out without karmic disaster.

"And in no wise way shall he think he is smarter than his guru until he has passed beyond the Veil of Paroketh, and even then he should exercise caution is him assumption."

Edwin taught me how to SERVE.

Right. We're all Servants of the Star & Snake. Gurus and Students who stress the "to serve" issue are operating on the 6th ray of devotion. We're not all operating on that ray (but we better learn to serve - the higher - properly). Other rays stress Will, Love, Intelligence, Equilibrium, or Order as their keynote.

I am ME. One with many aliases and incarnations.

Okay, now you've posted an interesting synchron. As you well know, I just finished the movie for 1.3, Warlord.

It has been said that this is one of my better efforts. In it, the protagonist (who anyone will easily identify) says:

Through a glass, and darkly,
the age-old strife I see,
where I fought in many guises; many names,
... but always me.

This short portrays the 1st ray of WILL & POWER, it's motto is Do What Thou Wilt, so it's applicable here, and possibly of interest to some readers & posters.

I still have four more ashrams to build, one at a time, then the seven will be stitched together into "the first ray movie" and posted on yourToob. 1.3 has already been privately sent to a shortlist of people. In support of that single phrase in MT's email, and due to its synchron with the most difficult and coolest short I have yet undertaken, I would like to offer a copy to anyone interested.

You know the drill: Send an email to notarajah@gmail.com with the subject line saying: SEND 1.3 ... and you'll get your own chilling version of Warlord.

Another play on words from the song "Age of Aquarius."

Not many of you folks were already up and running in the mid-to-late 60s. But this so called 5th dimension was actually opened up for a short run, a preview. An entire generation of humanity's youth were opened up, worldwide, by a legal chemical made in Switzerland.

If anyone is unfamiliar with the "dimensions," we all are huddled in the third. You know, Malkuth has width, depth, and height. Forget that stuff about "Time" being the 4th dimension; that's just an exoteric trick-phrase - time rules all the way up to the Abyss, and is only controlled at Binah.

The 4th dimension is well known to all of us as the astral plane. The 5th dimension is the causal plane (Tiphareth-Geburah-Chesed). This is also known as The Secondary Clear Light, wherein a dialog takes place between the mystical self and the mystical not-self. One is aware of both, simultaneously.

In he 6th dimension (Binah), there would be no identification by form or voice, because one would simply be that non-self. This is The Primary Clear Light.

I suspect this vision was Atmadarshana, the vision of God, face-to-face, and it's attributed to Kether. It comes rolling down Atu II to impinge upon Tiphareth (where it can be perceived as a vision and a (telepathic) voice.

To be continued as the DOME unravels and reveals its mysteries.

@shiva

I've really been enjoying your videos. Especially the 1.3 Warlord. I remember Edwin saying that General Patton remembered his past lives as a warrior and wrote about it in his auto-biography but i'd never remembered seeing that scene when I saw the movie. Francis Coppolla wrote the screenplay for Patton and won an Oscar for it. I'm gonna re-watch it this week.

@shiva said:

To be continued as the DOME unravels and reveals its mysteries.

DOME was actually spelled D.O.M.E. (I usually just spell it DOME) which is an abbreviation of the latin phrase "Dei Omnes Munda Edunt," translated as, "All the Gods/Goddesses bring forth/eat the worlds."

I was able to find some info on the web that is still live here:

https://www.encyclopedia.com/science/encyclopedias-almanacs-transcripts-and-maps/dome-inner-guide-meditation-center

D.O.M.E., the Inner Guide Meditation Center

"D.O.M.E., the Inner Guide Meditation Center, was founded in Santa Fe, New Mexico, in 1975 around the teachings of Ed Steinbrecher who had brought together a group with a diverse interest in occult matters including astrology, I Ching, the tarot, Jungian psychology, and meditation. It moved to its present location in Los Angeles, California, in 1984. D.O.M.E. stands for a latin phrase, "Dei Omnes Munda Edunt," translated as, "All the Gods/Goddesses bring forth/eat the worlds." The Inner Guide is described as an individual's lost teacher who stands ready to lead the seeker along the inward spiritual path toward the union with the higher self and to the mystic experience of oneness. The Inner Guide teaches practical ways to create harmony and balance by cooperating with the Universal Archetypes (familiar from Jungian thought), considered the principles of spirit and nature."

"The actual practice of the Inner Guide Meditation Center is found in Steinbrecher's book, The Inner Guide Meditation: A Spiritual Technology for the 21st Century, originally published in 1975. The book introduces the Inner Guide Meditation and prepares the individual for initiation into the experience in which he/she is assisted to make contact with a guide and with some of the universal archetypes."

Also, I was able to find a wiki page for Edwin which I didn't know existed:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edwin_Charles_Steinbrecher

"Edwin Charles Steinbrecher (April 4, 1930 – January 26, 2002) was born to parents,father Edwin E. Steinbrecher and mother Helen Clara (Siska) Steinbrecher."

"He was an American astrologer, lecturer, teacher, metaphysician and an astrological data collector, noted for works related to meditation and his precise Steinbrecher Collection,[1] entered on John Woodsmall's Pathfinder Program.[2][3] He taught and lectured on the occult sciences, specifically in relation to practising meditation[4][5] and wrote the book titled, The Inner Guide to Meditation.[6][7] The book has been referred in works of authors, in their books on esoteric subjects, meditation and intuition."

It's late here. More tomorrow.

L.A. Times obit for Edwin:

https://www.latimes.com/archives/la-xpm-2002-jan-30-me-passings30.1-story.html

Edwin C. Steinbrecher, 71, guru of a meditation technique combining astrology, tarot and Jungian psychology, which he described in half a dozen editions of his book, "The Inner Guide to Meditation: A Spiritual Technology for the 21st Century," died Sunday in Los Angeles of emphysema.

Steinbrecher was also co-author of "Gay Soul" and "Exploring Consciousness in the Horoscope." Until his health began to fail, he had lectured and taught meditation classes at D.O.M.E.

Another article:

Remembering Ed Steinbrecher and his Esoteric School

https://blog.chasclifton.com/?p=8476

Looking for something in the bedroom Craft/astrology/Tarot/magick bookshelves this morning, I ran across a copy of Edwin Steinbrecher’s The Guide Meditation. (It’s still available from Samuel Weiser and it’s good.)

But his Inner Guide Meditation system has a Tarot connection, and that is drawing me back to it. It will be intriguing to re-read the book.

Thanks for sharing these stories it must of been an amazing life experience.

"I am I was" is intriguing. It makes me think along lines of "I always NU I HAD IT."

@runelogix Thanks for listening.

@shiva said:

I suspect this vision was Atmadarshana, the vision of God, face-to-face, and it’s attributed to Kether. It comes rolling down Atu II to impinge upon Tiphareth (where it can be perceived as a vision and a (telepathic) voice.

I think this is exactly right. I will talk more about this God figure later, but in brief he was powerful and non-human and had no face. He was huge and wide and his voice was deep and ominous sounding. He was scary but i felt safe with my HGA close by. I felt no love from this figure. Just power. I felt like I was experiencing a hologram from another dimension...more later.

I have been familiar with my HGA since 1984 and Edwin's system made it easy to contact the HGA for thousands of people. Anyone can do it by closing their eye and walking into the cave.

My HGA's name is John and although we don't interact much (my fault--I currently use TM because it's easy) I trust he is always there looking over me and putting things in front of me. But there are times when he really makes his presence known. For example in January 2010 when I discovered the key and the riddle, I could feel him strongly pushing me to "get it."

I hadn't talked to John since discovering the key. But I had made the changes necessary, left the adult biz, and recently moved into a beautiful new condo on the hill above Pattaya beach. It was huge and private. A short walk to a quiet beach and a short motorbike ride into the biggest brothel in the world. My space was quiet and pristine. And living alone allowed me to dive farther into the work and make my own hours.

In early January 2011 after having settled in for a month or so I began taking the blog more seriously again. On January 10, 2011 I posted the "about" section of the blog. You can read it here:

http://www.aleisterinwonderland.com/about /"> https://web.archive.org/web/20110301174132/http://www.aleisterinwonderland.com/about/

[NOTE: if the above link doesn't work simply go to archive.org and search for aleisterinwonderland.com/about]

-begin excerpt-

“All my life I have been perplexed by the question, ‘Who am I?’ I have suffered as one who truly did not understand the quagmire his life had become. Until recently, my life has a been a conundrum with few answers."

“Please bear with me as I unveil the riddle of who I am to myself and others."

-end excerpt-

...to be continued.

[NOTE TO EDITOR: A post may have gone to moderation due to my using too many links. Please ignore it. I have since divided the post into two.]

My work process at this time always involved me sitting on my bed with laptop and typing away as I referenced books and notes nearby.

On or around January 15th, as I was working, John, my HGA, showed up to my left and made his presence known in my minds eye. I didn't need to close my eyes to see him or feel him. And I never looked directly at him as it's an astral thing. But I could see/feel him next to me and we had a chat on the mental level without me actually talking out loud.

After getting familiar again he stuck around for over a week and mostly would be behind me and to the left or behind me and over my bed as I worked. The HGA's (as Edwin explains) are non-judgmental and give off an enormous amount of love and protection. So I felt very safe.

It wasn't until a few days later probably around January 20th that this Aiwass God-like figure appeared. I had been feeling a large spacecraft hovering over my building at night. I never physically saw it but I could see it hovering and moving about on the astral plane (sort of like when you can feel and see someone standing behind a closed door.)

This was a huge long rectangular flat spacecraft. It was also completely silent and I was very sure that it was completely invisible to anyone else. It would hover closely over my building at night while I worked or slept. It was during this time that this God figure showed up. This would've been around Jan 20-22, 2011.

During these couple of weeks of work (approx Jan 10 to Jan 24), I would still go out for meals every day, sometimes for a beer, usually getting extra food so I didn't have to go out twice. So I was interacting with the normal world daily and felt fine. But as things developed I was getting a little wobbly toward the end of my stay and sudden departure, and felt that I could use some good rest and an adjustment to tighten some screws in me head. This was a very intense experience. Other than beer, this experience was 100% drug free.

On a few nights I even had a girlfriend over or went to a lady bar. But usually only after an intense section of work was complete and I needed a break.

I have all my notes and receipts from this time but due to the chaos that ensued and leaving town quickly I still haven't looked at them. I will do my best to reconstruct the exact order of how things transpired as I open this box of stuff.

As I continued blogging, another important post I wrote was a tribute to Kenneth Grant. I began writing the post on or around Jan 15-16 and published it on Jan 18th. I did not know that Mr. Grant had just died on Jan 15th (no one did until his passing was announced in February 2011, two weeks later.)

I was frustrated in my efforts to contact Mr. Grant and wanted to talk about it. The writing came out very long and sounding a bit like a goodbye to an old friend.

The post is called "The Sound of Silence" and you can read it here:

http://www.aleisterinwonderland.com/2011/01/18/the-sound-of-silence-kenneth-gran t"> https://web.archive.org/web/20110324235724/http://www.aleisterinwonderland.com/2011/01/18/the-sound-of-silence-kenneth-grant

-begin excerpt-

I decided four months ago to contact Kenneth Grant with my claim. I thought it fair to give him a heads up seeing that he was so helpful to me at the end of my last life and has done such great work to continue my legacy and teachings.

I began to investigate the best way to reach him and decided that Michael Staley was his number one man. I got a hold of Mr. Staley and I must say he was very kind and gracious. He gave me an address to send a letter to Mr. Grant.

I wanted to get the letter off fast as I would be leaving the country soon. I sent it on my way to the airport in Los Angeles in September of 2010. Please forgive me Mr. Grant for the weight and size of my package. It must have weighed two pounds and was filled with a hastily written cover letter and copies of photos and documents I believed would interest him and prove my case.

I addressed him as Mr. Grant and gently told him that I believed I was his man, at one point saying, “I believe I made you a promise, sir. That I would get in touch with you at some point when I could.”

I do believe I made him that promise. And it if it turns out to be true then I am a man of my word and have kept that promise.

While I was sure that Mr. Grant must have received a lot of these letters over the years, surely no one had the evidence I had? I packed a shirt and tie on my travels just in case Mr. Grant invited me to England for a cup of tea. I know, I know you’re laughing. I am too. It’s okay. I like to make people laugh.

Since then I have dropped a note or two to Michael Staley via email and at one point shared an anagram poem I had just authored using my name (in the hopes he would forward it to Mr. Grant.)

Silence.

No word from Kenneth Grant.

I want to be clear in acknowledging Kenneth Grant in the work he has done in the promotion and nurturing of AC’s work and legacy. He obviously has a deep commitment to the integrity of his role. He is clearly a man who loves AC and has devoted his life to Thelema and the Great Work (among his many other works.)

But humor me a little. If what I say is true and I am the reincarnation of Aleister Crowley, how am I supposed to let you know?

-end excerpt-

As I was finishing up writing the post my HGA suggested the "Sound of Silence" so I added the title and a video of the song performed live by Simon & Garfunkel.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZB3g_sIdkM

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls”
And whispered in the sounds of silence

..to be continued.

After posting the "about" section post on Jan 10, 2011. I made an account on Lasthal the same day and let it sit. I wasn't sure Lasthal was the right place to start posting information but it seemed like a legit site for Aleister Crowley information.

I went to the stationary store and picked up a few notebooks, pens, colored pens and pencils and stuff and assigned one notebook for general notes so I could keep a record of my process. The notebook started out fairly organized with dates written at top of each page but later became a mish-mosh of madness as I attempted to write what this God-like Aiwass figure was saying.

I do have a sense of humor, about myself and others, and love to "take the piss" as they say. My initial research had revealed that Israel Regardie had received so many letters over the years from people claiming to be the reincarnation of Aleister Crowley, that he had considered writing a book called Liber Nutz.

--see: redicecreations.com/specialreports/2005/10oct/acrowley666.html

So I decided to title my notebook just that: The Book of the Log aka Liber Nutz! - The Confessions of MT & Meaningless (Straight from the Cracka!)

The Book of the Log cover:

[NOTE: The price tag reads 12/53 which is the Thai date for December 2010. The "MT & Meaningless" is me having fun with Werner Erhard's Landmark Education which I was involved with in various capacities as a student and coach from mid-2003 until late 2013.]

The Book of the Log pg 01-02:

The Book of the Log pg 03-04:

another excerpt from "Sound of Silence" blog post:

-begin excerpt-

"Mr. Regardie is mentioned later in this post. He’s taken to making fun of people like me; which is understandable. There are so many of me around these days. It’s too bad he’s not around today. He died many years ago. If he were around I could channel a new book called “The Book of the Log” and write it on toilet paper scrolls and walk around spouting ‘Wisdom from the Outhouse.’ I would invite him to the release party, held in a public bathroom, and watch as he looked on in horror as I played this wonderful idiot proclaiming to be AC’s reincarnate. It’d be quite a riot."

-end excerpt-

...taking a break....to be continued later or tomorrow...feel free to comment...do what thou wilt!

em: ... in brief he was powerful and non-human and had no face. He was huge and wide and his voice was deep and ominous sounding. He was scary but i felt safe with my HGA close by. I felt no love from this figure. Just power. I felt like I was experiencing a hologram from another dimension…

The nature or description of any vision or initiation varies according to the thought-form making capacity of the individual initiate. So your brief description should not be confused by readers with other folks' description.

Specifically, the emphasis on Power in your vision pegs it for a first ray manifestation.

... a beautiful new condo on the hill above Pattaya beach. It was huge and private. A short walk to a quiet beach and a short motorbike ride into the biggest brothel in the world.

Wait a minute here! This is beginning to sound like Muhammad and the seventy virgins waiting in paradise for slain warriors.

... this Aiwass God-like figure appeared ...

How did "Aiwass" figure in. Did he announce his name? Did you instinctively know his name?

@shiva said:

Wait a minute here! This is beginning to sound like Muhammad and the seventy virgins waiting in paradise for slain warriors.

There are no virgins in Pattaya. But Paradise it was. Until all hell broke loose.

"How did “Aiwass” figure in. Did he announce his name? Did you instinctively know his name?"

This figure had no face but in place of his face was this hologram black and white checkered board 5th dimension playing motion images of history and events. (see description in above email)

His presence lasted for a day i guess (according to my notes) but it felt longer. This part of my experience is blurry but before and after are clear. All the communications with him were muddled and weird. I felt hypnotized and his voice kept repeating the same things over and over. Sometimes I felt like I was putting words in his mouth, speaking from ego trying to be scary. But what was constant is the tone of his voice. An ominous tone like the most evil scary movie voice that calls the person on the phone while they are alone at home. He helped me solve one aspect of the riddle. He kept saying "I am, I was. I am Aiwass." I got it. He said it was a reincarnation riddle. He explained away a lot of horrific events that happened in proximity to me during my lifetime as being no big deal. That when you are out to prove everlasting life a few dead bodies is no big deal. Richard Ramirez, the Manson murders, the Wonderland murders. That kind of attitude. Proving that you are the wickedest man in the world is no easy task he said. Doing it "hands free" with no blood on his or my hands even more so he said. He would also repeat things like "Come for me. I will wait for you. And when you arrive I will not be here. Look for me you will not find me." Repeating over and over.

But other than that it was all a lot of garbage and me talking to myself in his tone of voice as I rolled around on my bed trying to write some of it down. Most of the stuff I wrote down is embarrassing to look at. Like notes for a bad movie script. My notes aren't very accurate but my memory of his voice and the few important points he made re the riddle are clear. The rest seemed like horse shit and ego chatter on my part.

In contrast, all of my communications with my HGA were clear and concise the entire time he was around. I felt that my HGA called forth this figure to teach me or prepare me and that my HGA was in control of the situation. I wasn't scared but I did feel hypnotized rolling around on my bed with this voice in my head speaking for hours on end.

Perhaps it was all to prepare me to invoke Baphomet? To loosen up the screws and get me in a loose state of mind to do that? I've never before or since experienced anything like it. When it left I was hoping it was all over and I could rest hence the email to myself early on the 22nd.

In contrast the 10 days preceding his arrival were magic. The days where it was just me blogging and speaking with my HGA sporadically.

But a few hours after he left I got the idea in my head that it was now important to invoke Baphomet. So I did it, knowing all too well that it was very dangerous to do so. I felt a sense of responsibility to be careful about it. But I was intense in how I did it. I danced and bowed and prayed. And having little sleep due to this being visiting for the last 24 hours or so, I was in an altered state of mind. Like when you've been up without sleep for a few days. I was a little wobbly and tired.

But after the incident with the landlord I felt real danger. And all my joking around at times completely disappeared.

I was told very clearly by my HGA that I had to leave. I did not want to go. My life was perfect. I was very upset about this. It caused me to break down. I ran like hell. I cried. I did not want things to end this way. I was terrified. Once my HGA calmed me down I was able to get to Burma and get some sleep. As I rolled into Burma the uprising in Cairo began.

It's real late I need some sleep. Thanks for the questions.

Aiwass: I will wait for you. And when you arrive I will not be here. Look for me you will not find me.

This is the primary characteristic of the 10th chakra, way up above the head. You can/see/sense it in peripheral vision (physical-external or internal), but if you look directly at it ... it's not there.

Put that in your hat and smoke it; then consult you local Zen or Tao Master.

Manson Follower and star of Kenneth Anger film/soundtrack "Lucifer Rising" Bobby Beausoleil:

Rosemary's Baby & Tate LaBianca Murders:

Aleister Crowley:

Hey Aleister Came Inn:

Manson father/Sutherland son

Manson father = William Manson

Sutherland son = K. Sutherland

"The universe has a plan"

Manson follower/Southern land son = Bobby Beausoleil

Man sun follower/Sutherland sun = Aleister Crowley

PS (postscript, not urinary voiding): I just came across this little gem, written by me, in The Master Codex. I seems appropriate to compare it to the Vision of I am. I was. ...

"However, the I Am awareness can perceive it [the quantum circuit] directly. This type of perception is called Gnosis or Jñāna, which presents a cognitive event that is recognized when experienced. This experience will, of course, affect the MIND, and an appropriate thoughtform can be drawn from the Akashic Records, and then a person will be able to describe their experience with forms and colors and booming voices.

"But that description will be illusion. It's just the M IND citing a model, so that the perception might make some sort of sense to other people."

@shiva said:

“But that description will be illusion. It’s just the M IND citing a model, so that the perception might make some sort of sense to other people.”

Yes this makes sense. I was always aware of myself and the fact that my intention was to be able to explain things later. Never was I experiencing just for the experience. Never I was I truly dissolved into the abyss. Not even close really. I took DMT once in 2013 now that was a truly interesting experience.

@elitemachinery ;

Thanks for the questions.
For some more than others, perhaps?!

This figure […] kept saying "I am, I was. I am Aiwass." I got it.
Did you carry out any of the 'standard' (e.g. cabbalistic) tests with this apparition in order to ascertain the veracity of 'his' real identity and determine the validity of any credentials other than just his say-so on the matter?
You don't seem to have mentioned, but - did you perform any of the so-called 'traditional' sort of banishing/ purification exercises such as the LBRP before and/or after these proceedings, and if not what was the reason for that?

Re the A.A. and other tasks, I have no knowledge of these details or requirements at this time
Have you ever carried out any of the regular (daily) practices recommended by A.C. (in whichever representation) such as Resh/ Star Ruby or Pentagram / Samekh, etc? Again, if not is there any particular reason for not carrying out such a practice as recommended by him (A.C. - or it, the A.A.) dedicated for the progress of the serious student? Rating A.C. as you did/ do. Would you have somehow managed to "know it already"?

N Joy

The description of the experience involving Aiwass is similar in some ways to the story of James Beck.
Even including a phoneme riddle.
And the hint of a reincarnation parallel:
Beck was "born in Los Angeles, California, at 11:30 p.m. on 30 November 1954, which would have been 7:30 a.m., December 1st in Hastings, England, where Aleister Crowley had died precisely seven years before" according to the introduction.
There's a brief biography of Mr. Beck in the introduction to the online version of Liber 440.

@elitemachinery

He helped me solve one aspect of the riddle. He kept saying “I am, I was. I am Aiwass.” I got it. He said it was a reincarnation riddle.

Did this reincarnation riddle pertain in any way to the Legis II:76 code as well?

The story so far has also brought to mind a couple quotes from The Book of Codes:

I:4 They shall call thee fool and madman. Fear not. All my servants are fools and madmen.

To the part in the email you posted which mentioned the Tower

I am the Tower 16 remember?

II:31
Thus the inspiration
of the House of God
Thus do I sing
the praise of my Lord
Thus doth the Lord
sing the glory of Man
For the Angels of Earth
are the Satyrs of Pan
AUMGN!

@jamiejbarter and @mal

Great questions! I will get to them soon. I'd just like to quickly upload a few images to get them in the thread. Just awoke and drinking coffee. Then it will take me a bit to organize my thoughts and gather some things before I answer.

@jamiejbarter said:

For some more than others, perhaps?!

Sometimes your questions feel like trolling or that they will pull me "off the boat" to answer, or get me into an argument. Just trying to stay focused. But your most recent questions above are very relevant and shall be answered.

"Success is thy proof: argue not; convert not; talk not over much!"

Man son/father
Sutherland son

=Donald Sutherland "Alex in Wonderland"