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    Shiva
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    Wylie: It will become the most important planet.

    Alice Bailey touches on this topic, but ends up wondering what is so special about Earth that cosmic forces are coming to bear in order to assist in giving birth to semething special.

    Well … isn’t that special? Actually, after looking around the nearby universe, I don’t see a better location. I’ll skip the trip to Luna and Mars.

    As a different comment, I would say that MT’s 17-year enlistment under the DOME will qualify for having “received a spark” as well as trudgery through the long halls and vast auditoriums of the Outer Order.

    We are not able to assess (yet) whether MT fulfilled all the Tasks of a formal Outer Order of the A.’.A.’., per se (that means exactly in every detail), but he claims to have had a chant with his Angel. And that’s something that cannot be PROVED by MT, AC, or me, or you (anyone) because it’s a subjective thing.

    However, there is usually objective phenomena associated with such an event. I’d like to tell you a story or two, but will refrain in order to keep the topic on line. What next? This is turning into an archetypal drama.

    #112543

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    @shiva said:

    Actually, after looking around the nearby universe, I don’t see a better location. I’ll skip the trip to Luna and Mars.

    I agree.

    As a different comment, I would say that MT’s 17-year enlistment under the DOME will qualify for having “received a spark” as well as trudgery through the long halls and vast auditoriums of the Outer Order.

    In the interest of being thorough, I will continue to share documents and stories from my 17 stint of service at D.O.M.E. meditation center until i’ve covered it all. Then I will upload the new pics of my B.C. and continue forward.

    We are not able to assess (yet) whether MT fulfilled all the Tasks of a formal Outer Order of the A.’.A.’., per se (that means exactly in every detail), but he claims to have had a chant with his Angel. And that’s something that cannot be PROVED by MT, AC, or me, or you (anyone) because it’s a subjective thing.

    I have more to share about this also. Likely much more. Including quotes from Edwin’s book. I will try to be as orderly as possible but I may skip around a bit as needed. Re the A.A. and other tasks I have no knowledge of these details or requirements at this time but let me know if I ring any bells.

    For the record I still haven’t read all the Crowley books. I’ve read Liber AL the most times. Other books I’ve read portions of, skimmed, or used for reference if they have a good index (Pedurabo for example.) Since invoking Baphomet, chaos ensued and my life was a wreck for several years, scraping by and moving every few months. There have been many ordeals. But the spell seems to have worn off and I have settled into a stable life, with four cats and a stable place to live and work. Things are good and I have dealt with most of my fear. So more studies shall ensue. Perhaps it’s important for now that I am a bit ignorant of the details, perhaps i’m just lazy.

    For now here is an email I sent to myself on January 22, 2011 after the talks with my HGA and a visit from Aiwass seemed to be winding up. This was a few hours before invoking Baphomet. I sent this email to myself for two reasons. One to document my state of mind, and two because I had some dreams and strong feelings that I was being watched by authorities and deep state types (due to sharing my process and the Aleister project on facebook) and I wanted to let others know my state of mind.

    However, there is usually objective phenomena associated with such an event. I’d like to tell you a story or two, but will refrain in order to keep the topic on line.

    I will continue to share what i’ve got and you can decide.

    Feel free to put a word in brackets to remind us to start another thread later to unravel other stories you may have.

    [BAPHOMET]

    I remember you saying here on Lashtal a few years ago that playing with Baphomet was a big no no and that whenver the folks at Solar Lodge played with Baphomet it caused big problems with the authorities in the real world. I couldn’t agree more. We can discuss this later if you want.

    What next? This is turning into an archetypal drama.

    I appreciate the questions and support. For now I will continue with mostly D.O.M.E. and Edwin stuff until it’s time to unravel the B.C.

    …to be continued.

    #112552

    Shiva
    Participant

    em: I have no knowledge of these details or requirements at this time

    Oh, it’s simple enough:

    1. Control of the posture (asana)
    2. Control of the breath (pranayama)
    3. Banishing/Invocation
    4. Stopping thought
    5. Astral Projection
    6. Rising on the Planes
    7. Mental concentration (dharana)
    8. Qabalah
    9. Pratyahara (a form of evocation involving personal and cultural bias, plus confrontation of the id).
    10. Digging in a mine to obtain gold, silver, iron, and copper – to smelt, forge, cast, or otherwise shape these elements into a disk, cup, swo9rd, wand … topped off with a lamp that burns without oil, being fed directly from the Aethyr itself.
    11. One form of Divination (Atu, Yi King, Astro, etc). I think everyone should be familiar with all these forms, and a specialist in at least one.

    You must understand that I might have skipped something here (like memorizing a bunch of mystical prose and symbols that don’t work). Personally, I think memorization of AL is good, and the major Tables from 777 should be absorbed, but the mystical prose memorization part can be left out without karmic disaster.

    “And in no wise way shall he think he is smarter than his guru until he has passed beyond the Veil of Paroketh, and even then he should exercise caution is him assumption.”

    Edwin taught me how to SERVE.

    Right. We’re all Servants of the Star & Snake. Gurus and Students who stress the “to serve” issue are operating on the 6th ray of devotion. We’re not all operating on that ray (but we better learn to serve – the higher – properly). Other rays stress Will, Love, Intelligence, Equilibrium, or Order as their keynote.

    I am ME. One with many aliases and incarnations.

    Okay, now you’ve posted an interesting synchron. As you well know, I just finished the movie for 1.3, Warlord.

    It has been said that this is one of my better efforts. In it, the protagonist (who anyone will easily identify) says:

    Through a glass, and darkly,
    the age-old strife I see,
    where I fought in many guises; many names,
    … but always me
    .

    This short portrays the 1st ray of WILL & POWER, it’s motto is Do What Thou Wilt, so it’s applicable here, and possibly of interest to some readers & posters.

    I still have four more ashrams to build, one at a time, then the seven will be stitched together into “the first ray movie” and posted on yourToob. 1.3 has already been privately sent to a shortlist of people. In support of that single phrase in MT’s email, and due to its synchron with the most difficult and coolest short I have yet undertaken, I would like to offer a copy to anyone interested.

    You know the drill: Send an email to notarajah@gmail.com with the subject line saying: SEND 1.3 … and you’ll get your own chilling version of Warlord.

    Another play on words from the song “Age of Aquarius.”

    Not many of you folks were already up and running in the mid-to-late 60s. But this so called 5th dimension was actually opened up for a short run, a preview. An entire generation of humanity’s youth were opened up, worldwide, by a legal chemical made in Switzerland.

    If anyone is unfamiliar with the “dimensions,” we all are huddled in the third. You know, Malkuth has width, depth, and height. Forget that stuff about “Time” being the 4th dimension; that’s just an exoteric trick-phrase – time rules all the way up to the Abyss, and is only controlled at Binah.

    The 4th dimension is well known to all of us as the astral plane. The 5th dimension is the causal plane (Tiphareth-Geburah-Chesed). This is also known as The Secondary Clear Light, wherein a dialog takes place between the mystical self and the mystical not-self. One is aware of both, simultaneously.

    In he 6th dimension (Binah), there would be no identification by form or voice, because one would simply be that non-self. This is The Primary Clear Light.

    I suspect this vision was Atmadarshana, the vision of God, face-to-face, and it’s attributed to Kether. It comes rolling down Atu II to impinge upon Tiphareth (where it can be perceived as a vision and a (telepathic) voice.

    To be continued as the DOME unravels and reveals its mysteries.

    #112553

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    @shiva

    I’ve really been enjoying your videos. Especially the 1.3 Warlord. I remember Edwin saying that General Patton remembered his past lives as a warrior and wrote about it in his auto-biography but i’d never remembered seeing that scene when I saw the movie. Francis Coppolla wrote the screenplay for Patton and won an Oscar for it. I’m gonna re-watch it this week.

    @shiva said:

    To be continued as the DOME unravels and reveals its mysteries.

    DOME was actually spelled D.O.M.E. (I usually just spell it DOME) which is an abbreviation of the latin phrase “Dei Omnes Munda Edunt,” translated as, “All the Gods/Goddesses bring forth/eat the worlds.

    I was able to find some info on the web that is still live here:

    https://www.encyclopedia.com/science/encyclopedias-almanacs-transcripts-and-maps/dome-inner-guide-meditation-center

    D.O.M.E., the Inner Guide Meditation Center

    “D.O.M.E., the Inner Guide Meditation Center, was founded in Santa Fe, New Mexico, in 1975 around the teachings of Ed Steinbrecher who had brought together a group with a diverse interest in occult matters including astrology, I Ching, the tarot, Jungian psychology, and meditation. It moved to its present location in Los Angeles, California, in 1984. D.O.M.E. stands for a latin phrase, “Dei Omnes Munda Edunt,” translated as, “All the Gods/Goddesses bring forth/eat the worlds.” The Inner Guide is described as an individual’s lost teacher who stands ready to lead the seeker along the inward spiritual path toward the union with the higher self and to the mystic experience of oneness. The Inner Guide teaches practical ways to create harmony and balance by cooperating with the Universal Archetypes (familiar from Jungian thought), considered the principles of spirit and nature.”

    “The actual practice of the Inner Guide Meditation Center is found in Steinbrecher’s book, The Inner Guide Meditation: A Spiritual Technology for the 21st Century, originally published in 1975. The book introduces the Inner Guide Meditation and prepares the individual for initiation into the experience in which he/she is assisted to make contact with a guide and with some of the universal archetypes.”

    Also, I was able to find a wiki page for Edwin which I didn’t know existed:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edwin_Charles_Steinbrecher

    “Edwin Charles Steinbrecher (April 4, 1930 – January 26, 2002) was born to parents,father Edwin E. Steinbrecher and mother Helen Clara (Siska) Steinbrecher.”

    “He was an American astrologer, lecturer, teacher, metaphysician and an astrological data collector, noted for works related to meditation and his precise Steinbrecher Collection,[1] entered on John Woodsmall’s Pathfinder Program.[2][3] He taught and lectured on the occult sciences, specifically in relation to practising meditation[4][5] and wrote the book titled, The Inner Guide to Meditation.[6][7] The book has been referred in works of authors, in their books on esoteric subjects, meditation and intuition.”

    It’s late here. More tomorrow.

    #112556

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    L.A. Times obit for Edwin:

    https://www.latimes.com/archives/la-xpm-2002-jan-30-me-passings30.1-story.html

    Edwin C. Steinbrecher, 71, guru of a meditation technique combining astrology, tarot and Jungian psychology, which he described in half a dozen editions of his book, “The Inner Guide to Meditation: A Spiritual Technology for the 21st Century,” died Sunday in Los Angeles of emphysema.

    A native of Chicago, Steinbrecher served in the Navy in the late 1950s and later earned a bachelor of fine arts degree at UCLA.

    After mastering astrology and similar fields, he founded an organization called the D.O.M.E. Inner Guide Meditation Center in Santa Fe, N.M., on April 5, 1973. The initials of the center, which moved to Los Angeles in 1984, stand for a Latin phrase about gods bringing forth, and at the same time devouring, the world.

    Espousing healthful living–including vegetarianism, meditation and abstinence from smoking–Steinbrecher wrote his book in 1975. He recently completed work on what he called “the seventh and last edition.” The book has had steady sales at such specialty bookstores as the Bodhi Tree in West Hollywood.

    Steinbrecher was also co-author of “Gay Soul” and “Exploring Consciousness in the Horoscope.” Until his health began to fail, he had lectured and taught meditation classes at D.O.M.E.

    Another article:

    Remembering Ed Steinbrecher and his Esoteric School

    https://blog.chasclifton.com/?p=8476

    Looking for something in the bedroom Craft/astrology/Tarot/magick bookshelves this morning, I ran across a copy of Edwin Steinbrecher’s The Guide Meditation. (It’s still available from Samuel Weiser and it’s good.)

    I checked with Dr. Google and discovered that Steinbrecher, an astrologer and occult teacher, had passed away in 2002 — here is an obituary from the Los Angeles Times.

    What the obituary does not say is that in between founding his DOME (Dei Omnes Munda Edunt) astrology and meditation center in Santa Fe in 1973 and moving to Los Angeles in 1984, he and co-founder/partner David Benge lived in Colorado Springs for a time.

    Imagine a typical 1970s split-level house, with what would be the living room and dining room filled with bookcases — and all the books organized by zodiacal sign, so that gardening, for instance, would be in the Virgo section. So much more mystical than my habit of putting, say, all the books on Colorado and New Mexico history together! (What Sun sign would encompass them?)

    M. and I attended various talks and workshops at the DOME house. Ed was passionate about astrology, and this was the time in my life when I was deepest into it. Later, under pressure of graduate school, etc., I decided that something had to give, and that something was astrology, so I stopped doing people’s charts — these days, I might manage to check my transits once in a while. The last astrology lecture I heard was by Liz Greene (who is one of the best Jungian astrologers) in 2004.

    But his Inner Guide Meditation system has a Tarot connection, and that is drawing me back to it. It will be intriguing to re-read the book.

    #112558

    runelogix
    Participant

    Thanks for sharing these stories it must of been an amazing life experience.

    “I am I was” is intriguing. It makes me think along lines of “I always NU I HAD IT.”

    #112560

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    @runelogix Thanks for listening.

    @shiva said:

    I suspect this vision was Atmadarshana, the vision of God, face-to-face, and it’s attributed to Kether. It comes rolling down Atu II to impinge upon Tiphareth (where it can be perceived as a vision and a (telepathic) voice.

    I think this is exactly right. I will talk more about this God figure later, but in brief he was powerful and non-human and had no face. He was huge and wide and his voice was deep and ominous sounding. He was scary but i felt safe with my HGA close by. I felt no love from this figure. Just power. I felt like I was experiencing a hologram from another dimension…more later.

    I have been familiar with my HGA since 1984 and Edwin’s system made it easy to contact the HGA for thousands of people. Anyone can do it by closing their eye and walking into the cave.

    My HGA’s name is John and although we don’t interact much (my fault–I currently use TM because it’s easy) I trust he is always there looking over me and putting things in front of me. But there are times when he really makes his presence known. For example in January 2010 when I discovered the key and the riddle, I could feel him strongly pushing me to “get it.”

    I hadn’t talked to John since discovering the key. But I had made the changes necessary, left the adult biz, and recently moved into a beautiful new condo on the hill above Pattaya beach. It was huge and private. A short walk to a quiet beach and a short motorbike ride into the biggest brothel in the world. My space was quiet and pristine. And living alone allowed me to dive farther into the work and make my own hours.

    In early January 2011 after having settled in for a month or so I began taking the blog more seriously again. On January 10, 2011 I posted the “about” section of the blog. You can read it here:

    https://web.archive.org/web/20110301174132/http://www.aleisterinwonderland.com/about/

    [NOTE: if the above link doesn’t work simply go to archive.org and search for aleisterinwonderland.com/about]

    -begin excerpt-

    “All my life I have been perplexed by the question, ‘Who am I?’ I have suffered as one who truly did not understand the quagmire his life had become. Until recently, my life has a been a conundrum with few answers.”

    “As one who has explored the world of New Age religions and cults, I have usually chuckled when someone claimed to have been a well-known or famous figure in a past life. I’ve most often doubted it; and I have never before claimed to be as much.”

    “But the evidence in this this case is too strong to ignore.”

    “Had it been my belief that I was some other known or unknown figure in my past life, I would surely keep my thoughts to myself. But given the vast amount of research and interest in the life and work of Aleister Crowley, and the nature of his work, I believe it to be both my true will and duty to share this information.”

    “Please bear with me as I unveil the riddle of who I am to myself and others.”

    -end excerpt-

    …to be continued.

    #112561

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    [NOTE TO EDITOR: A post may have gone to moderation due to my using too many links. Please ignore it. I have since divided the post into two.]

    My work process at this time always involved me sitting on my bed with laptop and typing away as I referenced books and notes nearby.

    On or around January 15th, as I was working, John, my HGA, showed up to my left and made his presence known in my minds eye. I didn’t need to close my eyes to see him or feel him. And I never looked directly at him as it’s an astral thing. But I could see/feel him next to me and we had a chat on the mental level without me actually talking out loud.

    After getting familiar again he stuck around for over a week and mostly would be behind me and to the left or behind me and over my bed as I worked. The HGA’s (as Edwin explains) are non-judgmental and give off an enormous amount of love and protection. So I felt very safe.

    It wasn’t until a few days later probably around January 20th that this Aiwass God-like figure appeared. I had been feeling a large spacecraft hovering over my building at night. I never physically saw it but I could see it hovering and moving about on the astral plane (sort of like when you can feel and see someone standing behind a closed door.)

    This was a huge long rectangular flat spacecraft. It was also completely silent and I was very sure that it was completely invisible to anyone else. It would hover closely over my building at night while I worked or slept. It was during this time that this God figure showed up. This would’ve been around Jan 20-22, 2011.

    During these couple of weeks of work (approx Jan 10 to Jan 24), I would still go out for meals every day, sometimes for a beer, usually getting extra food so I didn’t have to go out twice. So I was interacting with the normal world daily and felt fine. But as things developed I was getting a little wobbly toward the end of my stay and sudden departure, and felt that I could use some good rest and an adjustment to tighten some screws in me head. This was a very intense experience. Other than beer, this experience was 100% drug free.

    On a few nights I even had a girlfriend over or went to a lady bar. But usually only after an intense section of work was complete and I needed a break.

    I have all my notes and receipts from this time but due to the chaos that ensued and leaving town quickly I still haven’t looked at them. I will do my best to reconstruct the exact order of how things transpired as I open this box of stuff.

    As I continued blogging, another important post I wrote was a tribute to Kenneth Grant. I began writing the post on or around Jan 15-16 and published it on Jan 18th. I did not know that Mr. Grant had just died on Jan 15th (no one did until his passing was announced in February 2011, two weeks later.)

    I was frustrated in my efforts to contact Mr. Grant and wanted to talk about it. The writing came out very long and sounding a bit like a goodbye to an old friend.

    The post is called “The Sound of Silence” and you can read it here:

    https://web.archive.org/web/20110324235724/http://www.aleisterinwonderland.com/2011/01/18/the-sound-of-silence-kenneth-grant

    -begin excerpt-

    I decided four months ago to contact Kenneth Grant with my claim. I thought it fair to give him a heads up seeing that he was so helpful to me at the end of my last life and has done such great work to continue my legacy and teachings.

    I began to investigate the best way to reach him and decided that Michael Staley was his number one man. I got a hold of Mr. Staley and I must say he was very kind and gracious. He gave me an address to send a letter to Mr. Grant.

    I wanted to get the letter off fast as I would be leaving the country soon. I sent it on my way to the airport in Los Angeles in September of 2010. Please forgive me Mr. Grant for the weight and size of my package. It must have weighed two pounds and was filled with a hastily written cover letter and copies of photos and documents I believed would interest him and prove my case.

    I addressed him as Mr. Grant and gently told him that I believed I was his man, at one point saying, “I believe I made you a promise, sir. That I would get in touch with you at some point when I could.”

    I do believe I made him that promise. And it if it turns out to be true then I am a man of my word and have kept that promise.

    While I was sure that Mr. Grant must have received a lot of these letters over the years, surely no one had the evidence I had? I packed a shirt and tie on my travels just in case Mr. Grant invited me to England for a cup of tea. I know, I know you’re laughing. I am too. It’s okay. I like to make people laugh.

    Since then I have dropped a note or two to Michael Staley via email and at one point shared an anagram poem I had just authored using my name (in the hopes he would forward it to Mr. Grant.)

    Silence.

    No word from Kenneth Grant.

    I want to be clear in acknowledging Kenneth Grant in the work he has done in the promotion and nurturing of AC’s work and legacy. He obviously has a deep commitment to the integrity of his role. He is clearly a man who loves AC and has devoted his life to Thelema and the Great Work (among his many other works.)

    But humor me a little. If what I say is true and I am the reincarnation of Aleister Crowley, how am I supposed to let you know?

    -end excerpt-

    As I was finishing up writing the post my HGA suggested the “Sound of Silence” so I added the title and a video of the song performed live by Simon & Garfunkel.

    And the people bowed and prayed
    To the neon god they made
    And the sign flashed out its warning
    In the words that it was forming
    And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
    And tenement halls”
    And whispered in the sounds of silence

    ..to be continued.

    #112563

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    After posting the “about” section post on Jan 10, 2011. I made an account on Lasthal the same day and let it sit. I wasn’t sure Lasthal was the right place to start posting information but it seemed like a legit site for Aleister Crowley information.

    I went to the stationary store and picked up a few notebooks, pens, colored pens and pencils and stuff and assigned one notebook for general notes so I could keep a record of my process. The notebook started out fairly organized with dates written at top of each page but later became a mish-mosh of madness as I attempted to write what this God-like Aiwass figure was saying.

    I do have a sense of humor, about myself and others, and love to “take the piss” as they say. My initial research had revealed that Israel Regardie had received so many letters over the years from people claiming to be the reincarnation of Aleister Crowley, that he had considered writing a book called Liber Nutz.

    –see: redicecreations.com/specialreports/2005/10oct/acrowley666.html

    So I decided to title my notebook just that: The Book of the Log aka Liber Nutz! – The Confessions of MT & Meaningless (Straight from the Cracka!)

    The Book of the Log cover:

    [NOTE: The price tag reads 12/53 which is the Thai date for December 2010. The “MT & Meaningless” is me having fun with Werner Erhard’s Landmark Education which I was involved with in various capacities as a student and coach from mid-2003 until late 2013.]

    The Book of the Log pg 01-02:

    The Book of the Log pg 03-04:

    another excerpt from “Sound of Silence” blog post:

    -begin excerpt-

    “Mr. Regardie is mentioned later in this post. He’s taken to making fun of people like me; which is understandable. There are so many of me around these days. It’s too bad he’s not around today. He died many years ago. If he were around I could channel a new book called “The Book of the Log” and write it on toilet paper scrolls and walk around spouting ‘Wisdom from the Outhouse.’ I would invite him to the release party, held in a public bathroom, and watch as he looked on in horror as I played this wonderful idiot proclaiming to be AC’s reincarnate. It’d be quite a riot.”

    -end excerpt-

    …taking a break….to be continued later or tomorrow…feel free to comment…do what thou wilt!

    #112566

    Shiva
    Participant

    em: … in brief he was powerful and non-human and had no face. He was huge and wide and his voice was deep and ominous sounding. He was scary but i felt safe with my HGA close by. I felt no love from this figure. Just power. I felt like I was experiencing a hologram from another dimension

    The nature or description of any vision or initiation varies according to the thought-form making capacity of the individual initiate. So your brief description should not be confused by readers with other folks’ description.

    Specifically, the emphasis on Power in your vision pegs it for a first ray manifestation.

    a beautiful new condo on the hill above Pattaya beach. It was huge and private. A short walk to a quiet beach and a short motorbike ride into the biggest brothel in the world.

    Wait a minute here! This is beginning to sound like Muhammad and the seventy virgins waiting in paradise for slain warriors.

    this Aiwass God-like figure appeared

    How did “Aiwass” figure in. Did he announce his name? Did you instinctively know his name?

    #112568

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    @shiva said:

    Wait a minute here! This is beginning to sound like Muhammad and the seventy virgins waiting in paradise for slain warriors.

    There are no virgins in Pattaya. But Paradise it was. Until all hell broke loose.

    “How did “Aiwass” figure in. Did he announce his name? Did you instinctively know his name?”

    This figure had no face but in place of his face was this hologram black and white checkered board 5th dimension playing motion images of history and events. (see description in above email)

    His presence lasted for a day i guess (according to my notes) but it felt longer. This part of my experience is blurry but before and after are clear. All the communications with him were muddled and weird. I felt hypnotized and his voice kept repeating the same things over and over. Sometimes I felt like I was putting words in his mouth, speaking from ego trying to be scary. But what was constant is the tone of his voice. An ominous tone like the most evil scary movie voice that calls the person on the phone while they are alone at home. He helped me solve one aspect of the riddle. He kept saying “I am, I was. I am Aiwass.” I got it. He said it was a reincarnation riddle. He explained away a lot of horrific events that happened in proximity to me during my lifetime as being no big deal. That when you are out to prove everlasting life a few dead bodies is no big deal. Richard Ramirez, the Manson murders, the Wonderland murders. That kind of attitude. Proving that you are the wickedest man in the world is no easy task he said. Doing it “hands free” with no blood on his or my hands even more so he said. He would also repeat things like “Come for me. I will wait for you. And when you arrive I will not be here. Look for me you will not find me.” Repeating over and over.

    But other than that it was all a lot of garbage and me talking to myself in his tone of voice as I rolled around on my bed trying to write some of it down. Most of the stuff I wrote down is embarrassing to look at. Like notes for a bad movie script. My notes aren’t very accurate but my memory of his voice and the few important points he made re the riddle are clear. The rest seemed like horse shit and ego chatter on my part.

    In contrast, all of my communications with my HGA were clear and concise the entire time he was around. I felt that my HGA called forth this figure to teach me or prepare me and that my HGA was in control of the situation. I wasn’t scared but I did feel hypnotized rolling around on my bed with this voice in my head speaking for hours on end.

    Perhaps it was all to prepare me to invoke Baphomet? To loosen up the screws and get me in a loose state of mind to do that? I’ve never before or since experienced anything like it. When it left I was hoping it was all over and I could rest hence the email to myself early on the 22nd.

    In contrast the 10 days preceding his arrival were magic. The days where it was just me blogging and speaking with my HGA sporadically.

    But a few hours after he left I got the idea in my head that it was now important to invoke Baphomet. So I did it, knowing all too well that it was very dangerous to do so. I felt a sense of responsibility to be careful about it. But I was intense in how I did it. I danced and bowed and prayed. And having little sleep due to this being visiting for the last 24 hours or so, I was in an altered state of mind. Like when you’ve been up without sleep for a few days. I was a little wobbly and tired.

    But after the incident with the landlord I felt real danger. And all my joking around at times completely disappeared.

    I was told very clearly by my HGA that I had to leave. I did not want to go. My life was perfect. I was very upset about this. It caused me to break down. I ran like hell. I cried. I did not want things to end this way. I was terrified. Once my HGA calmed me down I was able to get to Burma and get some sleep. As I rolled into Burma the uprising in Cairo began.

    It’s real late I need some sleep. Thanks for the questions.

    #112574

    Shiva
    Participant

    Aiwass: I will wait for you. And when you arrive I will not be here. Look for me you will not find me.

    This is the primary characteristic of the 10th chakra, way up above the head. You can/see/sense it in peripheral vision (physical-external or internal), but if you look directly at it … it’s not there.

    Put that in your hat and smoke it; then consult you local Zen or Tao Master.

    #112575

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    Manson Follower and star of Kenneth Anger film/soundtrack “Lucifer Rising” Bobby Beausoleil:

    Rosemary’s Baby & Tate LaBianca Murders:

    Aleister Crowley:

    #112576

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    Hey Aleister Came Inn:

    #112577

    elitemachinery
    Participant

    Manson father/Sutherland son

    Manson father = William Manson

    Sutherland son = K. Sutherland

    “The universe has a plan”

    Manson follower/Southern land son = Bobby Beausoleil

    Man sun follower/Sutherland sun = Aleister Crowley

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